I feel dirty and unclean. I have soiled myself. What can I do to clean my soul? What can I do? Take these stains. Take these stains. Wash me, make me like a child again. Baptize me, baptize me, baptize me, whether it be by water or fire, I care not — simply remove these stains, and if I must turn into ash for that to be so, then so be it.
But if it is still possible for me to be washed by water, if this life can still be redeemed, if you would bless me with not only a flood, but also an Ark, such that the redeemable within me might be preserved with Noah, and the irredeemable within me be taken away for good, to be drowned in your baptismal mercy, then let it be done. Let it be done. Let it be done.
THE CLOSET MYSTIC 