I think nihilists who let their worldview turn into a depressive apathy simply aren’t very creative.

I’d imagine that the sequence isn’t necessarily nihilism > depressive apathy, in most cases; rather, there’s likely an emotional trauma that is still yet unresolved, and the worldview reflects an existing emotional state of disempowerment and the values of one’s heart not being realized.

I’d imagine that most nihilists had their belief in goodness, for one reason or another, crushed. Instead of fighting to preserve that goodness by embodying it against the odds that surround them, I’d imagine that — in an attitude I’d characterize as cowardice — they forfeited their faith in goodness, in an awfully-binary model of the universe.

We so prefer black and white outlooks. They’re easier. It’s difficult to hold two things as true at the same time. I’d imagine that such folks, who witnessed some lack of goodness around them, had the pendulum of their outlook swing from an all-too-good and rosy lens on life, to a complete tossing of faith in goodness, trading a deep, pure optimism, for a deep-seated, crushing pessimism.

We must be able to hold two things as true at once. Good and evil both exist. If we see wrongness around us, we must get our fire going and activate our ability to be the hero and protagonist of our own life, championing what we see to be rightness.

“The purpose of this life is to live a life of purpose… life without a cause is life without effect.”

This is how love wins. We must not let the heaviness of the world burden us; rather, we must fight to champion goodness.

How did I get here from nihilism?

I see most nihilists as people who equated God, and a meaningful life, with some higher goodness. They were crushed at some point by life not being perfect absolutely all the time. They lost sight of goodness first before losing sight of God. One rainy day that brought them indoors, never to go outside for the next sunny day again.

Nihilists often cite dry rationalism as the segue into their belief system. However, I can’t help but feel like there is an emotional wound that leads to the belief system being developed.

I believe our emotional selves provide the foundation for the belief systems our intellect builds. But it is the emotional self FIRST that determines where the intellect builds up to.

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(This wasn’t even where I was going to take this, idk where all that came from. The first line — about nihilists with depressive apathy not being very creative — was from the thought that nihilism can be liberating if we, for example, look at life like a video game. Have your fun! That isn’t an encouragement to hedonism, as some may think — some video games that involve discipline and farming over time are actually super fun, just to see how far you can get for the intrinsic satisfaction therein.)