perhaps the reason why I do fine performing on a stage is because my entire life has felt like a masked performance. what’s the difference? it’s always been an act. there’s no shift in consciousness. just another mask to be put on, a quick shift, my life has always been quick change after quick change, character after character, adaptation after adaptation, dependent on the circle in which I find myself.
what does this leave me with when I am alone?
a blissful void.
the thing is, such a way of being sounds… neurotic. without a still center, without a constant self.
but I think otherwise.
I think the closer one becomes to the ever-still center within oneself, the fixed point, still Polaris that remains despite the spinning Ferris wheel of the zodiac, the more adaptable one becomes —
for, within one’s heart is the whole. all for one, one for all, contained within the heart.
the first paragraph I wrote here is awfully misleading.
masks?
no —
it’s all entirely authentic. I genuinely love all beings and feel like I can relate to all from all walks of life because there is always commonality to be found. the brotherhood and sisterhood of humanity is that constant. our unity is Polaris. therefore, all else, all other transitory features of the personality, are less important to me. I want to dance with all. All of humanity could be my dancing partner! I’m a quick enough study. Show me how you move, I’ll get the hang of it quick enough, and we’ll both have smiling faces in seconds 🙂
THE CLOSET MYSTIC 