At first, I thought I was becoming the best I could be to spite you.
Then, I knew I had really improved when I felt I was at the best possible place I could be, and thought to myself that I didn’t want you to feel badly that I was doing better. I wanted you instead to feel thanked. I put in the work; however, it was you who showed me the path to walk. Without that light shined, I wouldn’t be here.
I knew I had healed when I wanted you to feel proud, to feel like you had done something good, to feel like you had brought good into another person’s life, for I know how important that is to you. I knew I had healed when I wanted you to feel anything other than badly that I’m doing the best I ever have.
THE CLOSET MYSTIC 