and I wonder where this civilization is heading.
will future historians look back on us, at this point in time now, as the beginning of the end? will they study us like we did Rome, wealth and greed making the societal structure too top-heavy to be sustained? without balance, the scales horrifically lopsided, and down we go.
will they look back on us and study us, wondering? will they look back on our greed, indulgence, avarice, corruption, like we do Rome? will we become one of their maxims? “Rome wasn’t built in a day” — no, and the USA didn’t fall in a day, either.
well, if they do end up looking back, please know, we didn’t want it to be this way. please know that we didn’t want this. please know that we felt helpless. please know that we grew exhausted. please know that our senses were bombarded not just with indulgences but our minds were also stunned by those repeated, flashing images — injustice after injustice after injustice after injustice. you see so many of them, you no longer know what to act on. you know deep in your heart what is right — but, again, what are you supposed to do? self-preservation kicked in, we worried for our families, what were we to do? we had our history books to warn us — they shut down the libraries. we had our dystopias to warn us — they shut down the libraries. we had our very fucking gut instincts to warn us — they numbed us.
please, future historians, just know we did not want it to turn out this way. if these are one of the final echoes of a dying civilization, just know we are human and have a conscience just like you do. know we did not want this, but whatever mass psychosis, mass hysteria, mass madness has infected our minds has taken root and hijacked our very nervous systems.
i want to run away from it all.
THE CLOSET MYSTIC 