How can anyone love and not grow? To open your heart beyond yourself, reaching outward — you become bigger every time you love

“You are as gigantic as the things that you adore”

…

You held me,

And held my sadness — 

The walls of my heart

Thawed in your embrace.

…

This, the sublime — 

How I was meant

To spend my life.

…

Every time I wrote

put feeling into word

my heart won a battle

letting itself

be heard.

…

To love and be loved

What other purpose have I?

…

Yes, yes, yes, my heart? What is it now? 

After so long silencing you, I will answer your call forevermore. 

I had so much to account for:

Voicemails my heart left me throughout my youth.

I played them back and wept

…

How wild were those waters,

before the Sun was veiled.

Ice: 

you forget to feel.

Glaciers of my childhood

Melting in your love.

Here it is:

sea levels rise. 

I built my house on sand—

It’s taken in the tide. 

…

And no matter what I say,

My voice does not carry.

I scream my voice hoarse:

not a soul to hear me.

I miss the dark,

I miss nursing my agony.

I honored what was broken;

Now I’m cold, uncaring.

Do I remember how to cry?

Can your love break the dam? 

Light shines through the cracks;

There’s your hand,

here I am.