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  • bare

    August 30th, 2025

    the promiscuous psyche:

    laid bare

    for anyone who’d look.

    there’s a certain freedom

    in saying “to hell with modesty,

    to hell

    with emotional chastity.”

    i don’t think life is exhausting,

    i think lying is.

    these two things have become

    ink splotches,

    their vines bleeding into one another,

    their tendrils tangled.

    our prudish hearts—

    their binding.

    you alone 

    hold the shears

    you alone 

    will cut that ribbon.

    your ribs, 

    cell bars—

    are we not all born

    with caged hearts?

    freedom:

    a decision.

    the crab crawls

    from its shell.

    exposed.

    but there is no sweeter taste

    than the kiss of saltwater

    on your back.

    your pain grows wings,

    it evaporates with the water

    into the blazing sun:

    angels to the heavens.

    you’re made clean.

  • August 30th, 2025

    you don’t

    write poetry:

    you go and soak yourself in the elements,

    and then let them write through you.

    you don’t 

    write poetry:

    you go and soak yourself up

    in as much love and hatred 

    in as much medicine and poison

    as possible

    and then bleed them onto paper.

    you don’t write poetry,

    you don’t move souls,

    you don’t inspire,

    you don’t make 

    anyone 

    feel.

    you first

    are moved;

    you first

    are inspired;

    you first

    feel 

    with all that you are;

    and then, 

    you lay yourself

    bare

    on paper.

    you don’t write poetry.

  • announcement

    August 27th, 2025

    The manuscript of my first book, volume one of poetry from this blog, is nearly complete. So, so damn excited!

    Should be self-published within a month or so!

  • saboteur

    August 26th, 2025

    I’m sick of being sick

    tired of being tired

    anguished by anguish

    burdened by burdens 

    fed up with this emptiness.

    i pray to god

    for something real,

    yet i don a mask.

    how many candles

    have i blown

    how many pennies

    have i thrown 

    wishing for love

    in a heart

    that’s closed?

    i plead,

    i beg,

    to eat,

    be fed

    …

    but i purse

    my lips.

  • August 26th, 2025

    don’t

    do that

    don’t

    look at me like that.

    don’t 

    make me hope.

    nothing

    more cruel.

    i won’t

    let you in,

    though the warmth

    in that gaze

    threatens to melt

    the ice on my heart.

    things

    that i love,

    they tend

    to hurt me.

    i fail

    to see the barbs

    till I’m

    in their arms.

    ..

    i saw

    the garden

    from afar:

    lush. green. alive.

    you

    welcomed me in.

    as soon as i stepped foot,

    green 

    became black.

    all

    that was alive 

    wilted.

    what was gold, in my hand,

    became ash.

    stay away

  • August 26th, 2025

    i signed my life away

    when i met

    your gaze 

    one blink:

    never the same.

    i have a special affinity

    with dead things.

    they understand me,

    i understand them.

    there was a time

    when i

    was alive.

    i dislike

    thinking about it.

    remembering:

    it’s like

    the past’s warmth

    seeps through the now’s

    cracks,

    like god’s knife 

    cut a gash

    through the dark.

    it bleeds light.

    it burns my eyes.

  • August 26th, 2025

    i’m a qubit

    whatever you want

    to see

    that’s

    what i’ll be

    i wish

    i could be

    a transistor

    wish

    i could be

    one or the other 

    if that’s

    what you need,

    go love another.

    how can you say

    you love

    Me

    when i

    don’t have

    a self 

    to be loved?

    you love

    your own

    reflection.

    you

    are narcissus,

    i

    am water.

    i will play

    this role for you

    so convincingly.

    i’ll be clay for you

    shape Me

    however.

    oh,

    what a privilege,

    to be made

    in your image!

    how can you say

    you love

    Me

    when i

    am nothing?

    the fuller this love makes you,

    the emptier

    i grow.

    my veins are your spouts:

    drink.

    it isn’t self harm

    if i can’t feel a thing

  • heading downtown

    August 24th, 2025

    crickets, 

    their cultish hums

    a night so young,

    like a heartbeat, 

    its potential thrums

    i hear the call

    of the midnight sun

    just one more night

    please,

    let me run,

    away from the future,

    that smoking gun.

  • be the glitch

    August 24th, 2025

    so-called reality met its finality when you broke the chains of causality — “what a malady,” he said madly, “to obey rationality and its suffocating apathy, when actually to live happily is to discard what’s known factually and to let your heart lead — passionately.”

    a life of confinement needs a moment of atonement — out of character, the 4th wall broken. a flash, a bolt, the cell door open. “Go– run,” the fates have spoken. the mind electrified, forever awoken. 

  • you are thread

    August 19th, 2025

    Life, a deck of cards,

    how will you play them?

    Life, three balls of yarn,

    how will you weave them?

    Do you leave the strings

    to the Fates 

    thrice three?

    to passively say,

    “do what thou wilt 

    unto me,”

    or are you an anomaly,

    fate’s threads 

    made serpentine–

    it delights the sisters

    when the strings 

    give a push,

    and wrangle free —

    don’t be easily woven.

    sentience 

    is sovereignty.

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