putting words to our love,
the gravest insult:
like caging an eagle.
Mothers wail
on the other side of the wall.
Comfort’s hands
cover my ears.
Blood spills
on the other side of the wall.
Comfort’s hands
cover my eyes.
Bodies rot
on the other side of the wall.
Brother’s hands
cover my nose.
Children die
on the other side of the wall.
Brother’s voice
eases my mind.
In a world
of horrors, we’d rather be blind.
Brother, brother,
sing us a lullaby.
a love most tender. god, let me love you.
what a gift it is to give love. what a gift it is to get to love. to be there for you on your roughest days. to be the one you trust. to make you feel better. to make you food, hold you, comfort you. to be the one you turn to.
god, what a gift: to be someone’s refuge.
i want to be that one for you. i want to be the one you can put the wall down around. god, more than receiving love, i think it’s getting to give love to someone. to see that trust, to see you soften at my touch. to be your safety.
god, what a gift.
this world is so cold. I need to warm myself by the hearth of your heart.
two pairs of feet, they peek out of a blanket. their legs, lazily tangled. they graze on one another, they warm themselves. there is safety in this scene. there is simplicity.
it isn’t a scene that is mine. but it replays itself, over and over, within my mind.
why is it that desire
becomes an ache?
I’ve never known a want
without pain.
to yearn:
it’s to hurt.
oh,
to cook for you
while you rub the sleep out of your eyes—
you alone,
my morning sunrise.
coffee in the morning. you on my lap. lazy, slow. we steal minutes we don’t have.