you’ve no idea
what is waiting
to pour through you,
pour from you,
if you’d just get out of the way.
you’ve no idea the river—
demolish that dam,
it is your mind.
demolish that dam,
it is your fear.
demolish,
pour.
Tag: self healing
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sometimes,
love’s flame
is a fire that spills forth
as the sky cracks:
dawn’s light.
sometimes,
love’s flame
is a lamp burned.
its oil:
midnight.
love’s labors:
so oft
in those liminal spaces.
the heart’s torch:
the bravest tea light.
this love:
it is a quiet courage.
it has
no hall of fame.
it is
a gift
with no wrapping.
you feed on it—
you cannot see it.
you live on it—
you cannot feel it.
sometimes,
the truest loves
are unspoken,
& unseen,
but lived:
in the shadows.
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sit with your sorrow:
it can’t hurt you.
you can.
sit with your fear:
it won’t hurt you.
you can.
sit with yourself.
turn your back?
you’ll stab it.
sit with yourself.
the most basic form of respect:
bearing witness.
sit.
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there was a look in your eyes
somehow… dead,
yet more alive
than i thought possible.
it looked like
you stared each of your fears
straight in the eye–
then, snakeskin:
they were shed.
it looked like
all that died
were the bits of you
that kept you from living.
i pray
you’ll keep me around,
if only to teach me how.
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empty arms,
empty heart,
mocked
by the ticking clock:
it tallies
every wasted heartbeat.
my body is stone.
this
is waking sleep paralysis.
some unseen demon
sits upon my chest.
i scream at my limbs:
whose hands
are clasped over their ears?
betrayed by all:
even this
still-alive corpse.
some lives are death
long before the coffin—
some are ash
long before the urn—
this,
this is one of them.
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you mustn’t ever love
something without claws,
you mustn’t ever love
what cannot bite.
a hand that feeds
should be ready
to bleed.
there’s no such thing
as love
that draws no blood.
only shut mouths
do not bite —
only in silence
are edges smoothed.
honesty: it is serrated.
love too.
there is no other way.
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you branded the inside of my heart
can’t shake the feeling
that anyone I let in
sees you there.
your initials scarred,
emblazoned
on my chest.
you softened my heart,
then shaped the clay
with your hands.
into the crucible:
our flame scorched me into ceramic.
then,
you dropped me.
still am i here,
bloodied knees,
picking up the scattered pieces
of myself.
i wear you:
lesions on the brain,
burns on the heart,
scars on my knees.
i wear you.
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lips like razors
tease my neck:
my head tilts back.
from the moment
my eyes first met yours,
i knew i’d bleed for you.
your eyes
pierced me plenty,
stripped bare
in your gaze.
but you hide
behind the drawn curtains
of your soul’s windows.
unreadable.
unreachable.
how unfair.
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the promiscuous psyche:
laid bare
for anyone who’d look.
there’s a certain freedom
in saying “to hell with modesty,
to hell
with emotional chastity.”
i don’t think life is exhausting,
i think lying is.
these two things have become
ink splotches,
their vines bleeding into one another,
their tendrils tangled.
our prudish hearts—
their binding.
you alone
hold the shears
you alone
will cut that ribbon.
your ribs,
cell bars—
are we not all born
with caged hearts?
freedom:
a decision.
the crab crawls
from its shell.
exposed.
but there is no sweeter taste
than the kiss of saltwater
on your back.
your pain grows wings,
it evaporates with the water
into the blazing sun:
angels to the heavens.
you’re made clean.
THE CLOSET MYSTIC 