Hello reader,

Thank you for your email.

To answer your question, yes— I still feel “the call of the void,” as you put it. 

I also wanted to touch on one of the points you made: that a person cannot simultaneously be “put-together” while truly carrying “the void” within them. I cannot say I entirely agree.

Without going too deep into detail, let’s first be clear that “the void” represents the dark of the human soul— all of its capabilities for turmoil, psychopathology, chaos, and self-destruction. The autoimmunity of the psyche, if you will.

While this may at first seem at odds with how I carry myself through the world, make no mistake: a man can carry an ocean of disorderliness within him while holding the insight to channel it constructively. We are the progeny of the universe, child is like parent. We all carry the universal seed of entropy within us, just as we carry starlight. 

The question is, can order be made of this disorder? Can this very pit be channeled effectively, somehow? Despite the vacuum we carry, is there still a Sun suspended there?

I may have had a bit too much coffee this morning, but I hope you get my jist. Yes, I feel the call of the void still. I peer over into that endless pitch often. I am not afraid of it, nor is not at odds with my functioning in academia/in life— I think, rather, it fuels it. 

Let me know if you have further questions. Well wishes!